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Date: 26 July 2004 22:02:29

I'll just say this quietly in case anyone from work eavesdrops... I'm pretty sure they don't, but you never know.

I like my job a lot (honestly, not just in case anyone from there is here!) but have always fancied doing a PhD. I have a grand total of four degrees (BA, MA and 2 MScs), so I feel it would be rude not to go the distance... the department were more than happy and I put in a funding application to the national funding body in May. Without that I couldn't even consider it.

Told my bosses the day the application went in, they were very good about it and I was able to explain it wasn't because I wanted to leave, just that I really fancied doing a PhD. So they know, I just thought no point telling the colleagues in case it doesn't happen.

The funding body send results out 'during August'. I really have been quite relaxed about it all - the application process was hell, but once that was done I just let it go. Now though I'm starting to get quite concerned for no good reason - there's nothing I can do, the decision has probably been made, I will hear soon enough... but I suppose for all my knowing it isn't in the bag my head has been consistently assuming that in October I will be a full-time funded student again, doing stuff I really am quite engaged with and I really am looking forward to that. Last few days I have had 'what if it doesn't happen' moments which aren't too pleasant.

I can but wait...