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Date: 06 December 2005 20:48:50
No, he hasn't cried the whole time since my earlier post. He's in bed now though so hopefully it is safe to continue...
So, as I was saying... (and if you don't know what I'm on about then read the entry down there *points to earlier post*) ...
On the day, the theme of worshipping as a body rather than a collection of individuals came out quite strongly. I did say a little bit about it at the beginning (didn't let on about my song-choosing strategy though!) but I don't think I pushed it strongly in a 'this is what we're doing this morning' sort of way. It all hung together really well, and afterwards there was much arm-squeezing and "thank-you for this morning. It's so lovely when you lead worship birdie" type comments. People seemed to have engaged with it, and it was all really coherent.
I FEEL LIKE SUCH A FRAUD!!!
Honestly, I want to stand at the front and shout "I vaguely threw this together last night! I haven't been praying and fasting and pondering over it for weeks! I haven't had a quiet time since 1999! Actually I'm not even sure what a quiet time is! Stop looking at me like I have a hotline to the almighty and join me in my dance of the crap charismatic evangelical! Mock the rubbish songs! Confess that some weeks you come here and can hardly believe a word of it and just wish you'd stayed at home to watch the repeat of Match of the Day!"
Ahem.
So anyway, now I'm not really sure what I should do. On one wing (birdie, see) people seem to appreciate it when I do it. On the other wing, well, see above re feeling a fraud.
Oh, and I've been asked to lead on Christmas morning. Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.