Categories: just-life
Date: 27 January 2005 19:58:22
It had to come one day..... I pause and wonder what there is to write...... and then deciding against several topics due to their inappropiatility. That and the amount of trouble I'd get in if anyone I knew read what I've written!!
So on the topic of writing, it reminds me of the letter I posted yesterday. It had taken me a couple of days to write it, because I was explaining a slight problem..... (??) situation in which I happen to find myself in. I'd spent a few pages in going through all the relivent stuff thgat had been said and then finished by appologising for sending such rubbish........ completly missing the bit where I was going to write what I was doing about it, and why I'd decided to do all this...... Cause I'm a fool!!!
So now the letter just ends.... And what makes it worse is that I know I can't quickly just rattle off another letter, simply because of the weekend Ece won't get it till the weekend after....... Fool that I am!!!
That and the fact that I also wanted to tell her that I was going to be passing by her place in a few weeks and so would it be possible to pop in and say Hi...... Though, that can wait till either I send another letter, or till I bump into her online.
It's one of those strange things..... I'm a habitual composer, as I walk around the place I'll be there composing letters and emails that'll never get sent. I generally try to remember bits and pieces so I can actually put them into letters and emails. As my friend Yip has commented on a number of occasions "if we were paid by the word....." I also wonder why it is that when I'm not writing the words down, I find it easier to say what I want to say... maybe it's cause I'm able to use imagery in my mind without noticing, and they say that a picture is worth a thousand words...
Of course, the rest of the time I walk around I'm living in my own fantasy world, battling the forces of good.... I mean for the forces of good...... No, really, I mean for the forces for good.... it's just being nearly eight in the evening, and still being here my level of humour is just coming through a bit more than it should...... naughty humour..... "Down!! Sit!!"
That and having finished all the food that I brought up with me I'm still hungry and my stomach is trying to convince me that I should leave and go get something to eat..... but I shall resist... I still have work to do (as you can tell!!).
But to finish, a song that means a lot to me, that and I've just gotten to it on this CD, and it's right at the end...
-----I am what I am-----
I am what I am
I am my own special creation.
So come take a look,
Give me the hook or the ovation.
It's my world that I want to take a little pride in,
My world, and it's not a place I have to hide in.
Life's not worth a damn,
'Til you can say, "Hey world, I am what I am."
I am what I am,
I don't want praise, I don't want pity.
I bang my own drum,
Some think it's noise, I think it's pretty.
And so what, if I love each feather and each spangle,
Why not try to see things from a diff'rent angle?
Your life is a sham 'til you can shout out loud
I am what I am!
I am what I am
And what I am needs no excuses.
I deal my own deck
Sometimes the ace, sometimes the deuces.
There's one life, and there's no return and no deposit;
One life, so it's time to open up your closet.
Life's not worth a damn 'til you can say,
"Hey world, I am what I am!"