Categories: ouch
Tags: Accident, Compensation
Date: 19 February 2012 07:32:43
Today at 7.45pm it will be three years since the accident. Which is plenty of time to get over things. So why haven't I got over it yet?
I'm not talking about the pain, the occasional twinge I get where the ribs were broken or the constant dull ache in the ankle. (Although since the operation last July I am more active and have managed to lose nearly a stone in weight.) I'm talking about getting over it on a psychological level. I have turned into Mr Angry. Now I've always had a hot temper, I have always been able to fly into a rage. But since the accident my fuse has got shorter. Before last summer's operation the combination of frustration, and impatience at the speed of the legal process, (speed and legal, not words you usually see in one sentence) combined with the pain of walking on an arthritic ankle meant I didn't need a trigger. I was able to get angry at nothing. Today I have less pain and more control, but not much. On line people are insulated from the worst excesses of my anger. The number of times I have started writing a long angry post, usually personal, to something that has irritated me, only to have calmed down by the time the reply has been drafted and not posted it. In real life things are not so good, there is no cushion of time in which I can change my mind. I an becoming a harder and harder person to live with. Now I have been calming myself with the belief that things will improve when the settlement for my claim is reached. But will it? Behaviour is habit forming, and it may take time to get over the habits that have built up over this time. And what if the pain comes back? Will the anger increase with it? My problem, as I see it, is that there is no channel in which I can vent my frustration, so that it tends to surface in inappropriate ways. But how do I find a way of venting? On the claim front I got another letter from the solicitors this week saying that as three years is about to come up, they have "issued my claim due to the 3 year limitation period expiring shortly. This is a standard procedure." Whatever that means. All I know is that they are doing something, and that will do for now. And I go for another medical, to check on my fitness on the 3rd April. This was first posted on St Pixels blog on 14 March '09 To see the blogs about the accident and recovery together please use the “ouch” link under Categories