A work in progress
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Date: 08 October 2007 20:37:55
There are times that I feel as though I am being pulled apart by the fact that I have to be different things to different people. Some people see me as a social worker, a friend, a sister, daughter, granddaughter, cousin, key-worker, colleague and some people see me as 'Anna' - they see all of these things and recognise that I have different roles for different people. The question for me is how do I reconcile all those different faces, if indeed it is possible at all.
For me my life is a bit like a patchwork quilt. Sometimes I feel as though I am full of contradictions; different colours, shapes and textures. Some people only see one part of who I am, they only see the little patches but not the whole quilt. Because they don't catch sight of the whole thing they miss out on the way the colours complement each other and the fact that each individual part is necessary to the whole. Some of my friends see the complete quilt, they see more than little tiny patches of my life, more than the individual roles and as a result they can see the whole picture; the full quilt. The real me. The real me that I often think it unacceptable, but somehow it is much more satisfying than the individual patches alone.
Nb. The pretty quilt at the top is one I have been making for ages... it has sat in the cupboard for months, but I have been getting on with it again. I love it, and lots of the fabric is from old clothes that belonged to various family members. You could say that my memories are being sewn together!