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Date: 05 February 2009 22:55:49
All I seem to be hearing these days is about people I know who are pregnant. It's really hard, I would like to be happy for them but I just find it impossible. At least 5 or 6 people have recently announced their pregnancies and it is all they bloody go on and on about. This is particularly hard when it is your sister who is pregnant. I am trying to be pleased and I want to know what is happening, and yet I feel like an observer. A bit like I am watching them on a TV show instead of being part of their lives. It's hard and I don't really know what to do with it. Emotionally I feel battered every time they mention it, and yet I know that everyone, especially my family, would be far, far happier if I pretended I wasn't hurting and just plastered on the fake smile and engaged in the banal chatter. I am not sure I can do that anymore.