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Date: 02 January 2006 13:41:49
A Happy New Year to everyone! Sorry it's a day late, but as it's a Bank Holiday it still kind of feels like New Year's Day really.
I had a counselling session today that kind of surprised me. I don't find spending time with my family that easy and I usually kind of "freeze up" inside emotionally. It's a kind of self protective mechanism. Then when I'm back on my own I gradually "unfreeze" again. Today in my counselling session I think I unfroze very suddenly and quickly and all at once. It was a bit of a shock as I hadn't been expecting it and also quite painful and emotional. I'm left feeling rather shaken and aching inside. Actually when I came home I felt really tired and very cold so I made myself a hot water bottle and went to bed. It took a while to get warm but then I've slept for over 2 hours.
So what am I going to do with the rest of my Bank Holiday? I know I need to do a bit of work/preparation before I see my tutee tomorrow, and as usual there are household chores to do. But if I can psych myself up to it, I think I may try and do some more work on my bed. I bult it years ago, but it's never been quite finished. Maybe this year?......