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Date: 22 March 2006 22:45:03
I am sure that it is really bad weblog manners to not post for ages and then suddenly post a message just asking for people's help but - please forgive me for this.
It's just that I have started to struggle a lot with anxiety and depression again and I'd value any prayers that people could manage. I'm feeling so tired too as I'm not sleeping very well because of being so tense.
I've been talking about this with my counsellor and what she said on Monday was really helpful but I'm thinking that it's still not going to be quick or easy to work through.
She thinks the way I can get so extremely anxious about something is because I'm actually feeling a trauma reaction from past situations, rather than the feelings actually being about whatever it feels it's about at the time. That's been a help to think of it like that but I'm still ricocheting from one anxiety to the next and it really often feels that its about a current issue even if a small rational part of my brain thinks it does seem like an over-reaction.
Anyway - I need help, and I need God to work things through in me so that I can be in a different place emotionally (and I wish he'd hurry up too!)
Thanks for your patience with me!