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Date: 31 May 2007 23:13:19
Well - finally I've got round to blogging again. It has been on my to-do list for ages! Thank you to those of you who still popped by to say hello and let me know that you've been thinking of me. Anxiety -wise things have been better of late - thank you for all your prayers.
Actually I'm just coming to the end of a week's holiday- this may not seem like very much but for someone self-employed it is actually a "big-deal" and the first proper holiday I've had since Christmas. I've not had a bad week, though I'm still snuffling with a cold that I started a week and a half ago.
I went to visit my Granny who is in a nursing home and really wasn't very with it, but I think by the end of my aunt's and my visit she knew that someone from the family had visited, even if she couldn't quite place us!
I've avoided doing most of the jobs I intended to do, thoug I have cleaned out the inside of my car - a job that needed doing very badly.
I've been out with various friends which has been nice and probably spent more money than I should have done. Yesterday evening I was very tired and so thought I'd go to bed for a few hours at 6.00pm. I didn't wake until 3.30am - got up and ate a bowl of cereal and went back to sleep again and didn't wake up until 10.00am the next morning. and I still feel really tired. Actually that is one thing that is really beginning to get to me about having depression - the constant tiredness. I do feel though that if I could resolve some anger issues I have, I might be less tired though (easier said than done).
I've been to homegroup tonight but had a bit of an uncomfortable time as I found myself reacting to things people were saying. I think it basically boils down to a "but I feel scared of God" kind of reaction but I'm feeling a little anxious about it at the moment. We were talking about not allowing ourselves to think negatively but thinking of the positives (God loves me and values me etc) and I found it uncomfortable and now I feel confused too. I don't think I'm going to try and sort it out tonight though. I may not even try and sort it out at all!
Anyhow I'm trying not to go to bed too late so I guess that's about all for now!